Tough Times

Ron and I celebrated two years of marriage on the 22nd. I'm as content as I've been since the beginning of being married. Probably more so because I've really settled into living in Greenville.

April was and continues to be a tough month for us, though. The PET scan revealed that Ron has several hot spots in his body. The one of most concern -- with the highest SUV number -- is in his pelvic bones. Monday we go to Memorial Hospital so a biopsy can be done. I am not expecting good news. Nuf said.

Ron continues to not be worrying. He is as he always is. Life is today, this hour, this minute, and he goes with the flow. I asked if he is worried. He said, "No."

I, on the other hand, think that while I'm not worrying on the outside I am on the inside. What I thought was my colitis returning has been given the label of anxiety and stress by the gastro doctor. Hmmmmmm.... so I should cry and rant and rave once in a while, as I did in a former life when faced with stress, so that my intestines don't turn on me. Whatever the cause, and for all we know, I might have caught a bug, I have lost 5.5 pounds and am living on the BRAT diet: bananas, rice, applesauce and toast. I'm actually liking it. I must be sick. :--)

Em was a wonderful child this past week. I had her Tuesday, a day that I was so sick and in such pain that I cried on and off all day. More than once Em patted my cheek and said, "Cheer up, Grandma. Smile for me." She also advised me to breath: "Breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out. Now don't you feel better?" She made me laugh and unknowingly was the best medicine I could have.

Friday I was feeling better - a temporary stay on the part of my intestines -- and was also with Ember. It was a great day and we took Hannah, her baby, for a stroller ride and then Em rode her big wheel bike around the block a few times. Mid-morning we went to the park. In all of this, Em was cooperative and listened. Both Tuesday and Friday she napped for two hours. It was a gift.

I think that Em attending nursery school two mornings a week has helped her in controlling her emotions and listening better. I know she loves going there and each week tells me more about the kids with whom she plays. On our walks around the block, we pass by her "school" and she walks up to the door, presses her ear against it and says, "I can hear the kids in circle." LOL

Today my problem returned and I was in a lot of pain. The pain makes me sleepy so I napped for two hours and woke up feeling much better. Ron also napped two hours.

Weather - The beginning of the week was chilly and rainy, but by Friday, it was warmer and sunny. Em and I didn't need jackets at the park yesterday. Today it was up to 88 degrees with just the slightest hint of a breeze. It was a seriously sunny, blue-sky day. We did quite a bit of swing sitting. We both read and often hold hands.