The Continuing Business of Death

Panic set in for a brief moment yesterday when I got a notice from the NYS Workers' Compensation Board that Ron's business owes $16,000 in penalties. Jezumcrow! Turns out the business (and therefore me and Ron's brother) would owe penalties for non-compliance because no workers' comp insurance has been carried since the end of July but.... duhh... the business closed when Ron died, so there are no employees. The local insurance agency will take care of the problem and hopefully I'll hear nothing more.

Also, the business (i.e. ME), needs to notify the NYS Department of Taxation & Finance that the bucket truck is no longer on the road, or even owned by Ron, and therefore does not owe over-the-road tax.

When I married Ron I was adamant about not getting involved in the business. I knew it was not run well, but had no idea how badly it was run. Had I gotten involved, I could have avoided some of the issues I'm now facing. I just never know when something else will crop up. It makes me very uneasy.

I've been posting to a message board/forum for widows, and have "met" a great woman. It's not often I click with someone, but when I do, it's like a gift. It's too bad that what brought us together is the death of our respective husbands.

This past Monday Em had her first class at Soccer Tots. She is THRILLED with it and as we walked out the door after class, she asked if she could ever come back. LOL Well, yah, cause Grandma paid for 8 weeks of classes and will re-up her at the end.

Tomorrow I'm taking Em and her mom to the Children's Museum in Saratoga. Em calls it the museum park and just loves it. After I'll take them to lunch and then Em's coming down here for the afternoon. Tomorrow evening she's going downstate with Tony to see Brianna.

I've had a few good days in a row. Not many tears; little intense grief. I miss him. I hate being alone in this house and on this property, but it is what it is and I'm not one to give up.