Out of Sorts

Today was a very out-of-sorts day. I wasn’t feeling 100% emotionally or physically. I had Ember today and pretty much let her play by herself. She got a couple of piggybacks and one story – which she didn’t want to hear anyway – and of course a good breakfast and lunch, but other than some cuddling, we did a lot less interaction than usual. When she asked for TV, I let her watch it. That never lasts long. She gets bored with most kid programs other than Word World! She loves that PBS program.

Judy came down today. She interacted more with Em than usual, so I was given a guilt-free break.

Sometimes I just don’t want to live in Greenville any more. Ron would not be happy anywhere else so selling, if it was even possible in this economy, is out of the question. I miss being right in the midst of the Capital District. I miss being 10 minutes from a Target and a good grocery store. I miss being 15 minutes from Ember instead of 45. I just miss my home. I’m tired of thinking ahead to the “next trip to the city” so as to combine errands in an effort to save time and money.

On the flip side, I am only 45 minutes from home. This is beautiful country, with the peaks of the Catskills just a turn of the head away. Ron is here, which is the most important – the only reason – to live in Greenville.

So I’m down in the dumps about living in Greenville.

Today’s weather – It was not nice. Temps were only in the mid-50s. It was cloudy all day. It started to rain on the trip down from Em’s and hasn’t stopped.

Life changes - Life is always changing and what goes round comes round, so the life I've known in the past will one day return.