The Fun of Buying

Yesterday, Ember asked me, "Grandma, can you buy me a scooter?" The question was prompted by her watching a little boy on a scooter. She asked for a girl scooter but said if the store didn't have any, a boy one was OK. My response was, "Yes, Em, Grandma will buy you a scooter." She said, "Thank you, Grandma," with total seriousness in her voice and confidence that I'd come through.

Of course, she's asked everybody in her life for a scooter, with total confidence that that person would come through. LOL

Today Grandma Marla came through!! I'm one for buying little things: bubbles, a new ball, a book, and even though the scooter was on sale for only $23.00, it represents more than bubbles or a ball. I can't wait till she sees it. She will be soooooooo happy.

So that was the fun of buying for me today. I also bought a couple necessities but that's not nearly as much fun.

Had my 6-month checkup for BP and blood work today. Things are mostly OK. I then met a friend at Panera's for a late breakfast. We drank coffee and chatted for an hour.

Ron's is feeling horrible. His fatigue is total exhaustion. It's a tremendous effort for him to get out of a chair. I "force" him to get up and do a couple of walks around the house every few hours. He's thinking slowly; his mind isn't as sharp, probably because it's too much effort. His appetite today was better. I had a small roast beef with gravy, potatoes and corn muffins for supper, and he ate well. He also had breakfast and a small lunch. He hasn't eaten three meals, albeit small ones, in quite a few days.

Dealing with cancer is a journey that is taken together but with the travelers using different modes of transportation. We hope to arrive at the same place together, but along the way what we see and experience are totally different. No matter how much love there is, I do not know what it is to live in Ron's shoes, or as is most often the case, slippers. He cannot know the anguish, guilt, fear, trepidation, worry and concern I have.

Weather - Today was supposed to be lovely. It fell short. The past four weeks have really sucked.

Random thoughts - I wonder if the new sandals I've been wearing, which feel great on my feet, are contributing to the increased pain in my knees? Maybe I walk differently in them? What kind of cell phone service should I get? I am smiling thinking of Em's Princess Scooter with its pink basket and multi-colored handlebar streamers. Ah the joy of living vicariously through one's granddaughter. The hot rod is being picked up by the transporter guy Saturday. Tomorrow the check clears. :--)