Scooter and Happiness

Em was thrilled with her scooter. For some reason, instead of "hiding" when she heard me park in front of her house, she looked out the window and saw me carrying the scooter. Her face lit up like the sun and she was yelling, "Grandma Marla got me a scooter. It's beautiful. It's pink. A scooter." If it had cost three times as much, it would have been worth the price for me to see her reaction. "Thank you, Grandma. Thank you so much for my scooter. I love it. It's perfect. I love you. Thank you so much," words she kept repeating.

Whether she really loves it or just is happy with her most serious desire being filled is something we may never know. She is showing great pride in ownership and has ridden it up and down her block half a dozen times, helmet high on her head.

Ron has chemo yesterday. It was only Gemzar, which is easier on his system. He got an injection of.....?? damn, can't remember the drug, but it's similar to Procrit, which is a booster of red blood cells. Today his friend Walter is taking him up for a shot of ??? (again can't remember name), which will boost his white blood cells. His RBC count yesterday was not good. No wonder he's so tired.

Some days it's tougher than others for me to keep a stiff upper lip, so to speak. Some days, or moments, tears just seap out of my eyes almost without my knowing it. There is fear that this is the beginning of the end, though my mind tells me that Ron's extreme fatigue, he's sleeping 18+ hours a day, is due to the chemo. I am full of fear of how I will handle all that will eventually have to be done.

All I've ever wanted is a simple life. I subscribe to the idea that the more one has, the more one has to take care of, insure, worry about, etc. I don't need stuff. I don't like to have stuff. I married a man who has stuff. No, he has STUFF. Some of the stuff will go to his children, but most of it is not family-related. Hmmmmmm...wonder if they'd be interesed in the old yellow bathtub in the cellar? Or how about the furnace that was replaced last year. Maybe the washer that was replaced last month by a new one. Don't forget the bucket truck, the pontoon boat and trailer and two work trucks that bear the company's name to name a few other things.

I am ahead of myself and our situation as it is now, but I am seriously concerned that the amount of work involved when all is said and done will be more than I'm physically capable of doing.

Weather - Rain, clouds, chilly damp temps. Lousy June.

Gas prices - They continue to go up. I paid $2.75 at the Glenmont Cumberland this morning.

Exercise - Ha!

Random Thoughts - Hope I am successul at switching my cell service from Sprint/Nextel to Verizon tonight. Piece of advice: Do not use Sprint! Em is sleeping right now and has been for an hour. I hope she wakes up happy.